Day off sick…

Today is the first day in over 7 years that I have taken the day off sick because of my RA. I don’t like it, but I know it’s the right thing to do.

I’m experiencing such turmoil.
Thoughts of guilt – from leaving the rest of my team to deal with my patients, to the idea that I might take myself to the swimming pool to ease my joints (“people off sick don’t do that, if your too sick to be at work, your too sick to go swimming surely?!”).
Thoughts of disappointment – from not being able to keep going
Thoughts of anger – at myself for pushing myself to this point

But equally, I know it’s the right thing to do, I have to listen to my body more, as I stated in my blog ‘Good Days and Bad Days’ yesterday:

“Essentially, this is me starting to consider my life and health over my sickness from work… A big step for someone who abhors being off work”.

I just didn’t realise that I would have to take that step today!

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