Busy busy!! 

‘Busy busy’ is the phrase Andrew and I use for Seb’s constant ‘on the go’ attitude!!! 

Can you believe he is 14 months old!! A lot has happened since I last wrote… And I am trying to get back into the habit of writing…. But my my it is hard!! 

I’m back in work full time, I have a ‘busy busy’ 14 month old little boy… Who took his first steps yesterday!! My RA is flaring intermittently, and I am desperately trying to get some exercise in (this bit has been very tricky… But new year, new beginnings and all that!!).

I am trying to put together a bit of a plan to get you up to date with the last year in short bursts, as I just don’t have the time these days to write pages and pages… Currently as we speak I am in work, expressing breast milk for Seb, trying to get some signal in this hospital!!! 

Right… Lunch time, and time to get some fresh air and a bit of natural light!!! Hopefully see you soon! 


Progression Continues 

I know I start every post with ‘blimey, it’s been a while!!’ But it really has!! And time just keeps ticking by!! 
It was RA awareness  last week, and apart from changing my cover photo on Facebook, I have done very little by way of raising awareness. But I think next year I will do my best to be more prepared and do something more creative!! 
Life is very full at the moment with lovely groups and enjoying the summer weather with Seb!! He’s growing fast, and I’m just very grateful that he is a typical boy, and choosing not to move much!! 😀 he did roll over yesterday… But hasn’t bothered to do it again!! And standing… Bless him. No interest!! But he is one heavy bugger, so I don’t blame him really!! When he does start moving, and building up some muscles he’s going to be one strong little power house!! 
My reading around nutrition continues, and still fascinates me!! And I am now becoming a fermentation queen, with sauerkraut, kimchi, kombucha, coconut milk kefir and a ginger bug all on the go. Individually they are so easy… But with a 7.5 month old and all of them together… It is a lot of organisation!! But well worth it!! Since adding a probiotic supplement and increasing my intake of fermented foods and drinks I have definitely seen an improvement in my health again!! 
Really, I am pain free (sleep and stress are my biggest triggers at the moment, so as Seb is poorly at the moment, I am waking with some aches and fatigue…. But it goes within say, 10 mins??!), my joint range of movement is gradually improving (I can now crouch fully (and get back up!!), and even kneel on hard wood floors!!), I’m regaining some muscle definition in my wasted legs (hooray!), and I must be getting stronger as my daily weight lifting session (carrying a 20lb Seb around) is gradually getting heavier with very little ill effects!! My only complaint is my right wrist… I have a superficial swelling on the dorsal aspect of my right wrist that has been there since January… It inhibits active, combined wrist and finger extension… I can’t tell if it’s effusion under the extensor retinaculum impinging on the tendons, if it’s carpal joint effusion again impinging the tendons or if there’s a tendon problem… Or even a subluxed carpus. I asked for an USS guided injection at my rheumy clinic, but the declined the USS, saying it will be easy to inject… I’m going for it on 6th July, I’d prefer they know what they are injecting… But to be honest the lack of extension at my wrist is driving me so mad that I am just accepting the offer of an injection and hoping for the best!! 
I’ve been back to the student nutritionist, not much change to my protocol really, but I am now getting a stool analysis, mag RBC and HTMA done to look into why I’m still getting some niggly symptoms (right wrist mainly, my CRP is still slightly raised and some degree of anxiety and fatigue). Hoping it shows up a few more things to work on to finally get me back as well as I can be in time for my return to work!! Can’t believe I only have 3 months lefts!!
I have started weaning little Seb. We’ve gone down the baby led weaning, which is great fun and very messy!! He isn’t a natural at chewing and swallowing… But he’ll get there!! It’s been so much fun I’ve started a Facebook group called paleo/primal baby led weaning, and it seems to be going quite well. Come and join us if you fancy? 
And finally, I got a new job today (still on maternity leave until October), as a Specialist Rheumatology Physio… So hopefully once I get my foot in the door I can start spreading the work about beneficial lifestyle changes to hopefully help my patients!! 

Always on the go!! 

Struggling to find time to check in with you guys!! Life is so busy!! And that is SUCH a great thing!! I’m busy, because I can be!! 
I am feeling great! Still not 100%… But I am getting there bit by bit everyday!! It’s so amazing to see how much better I am compared to 2 months ago!! In yoga this week i crouched down onto my haunches… Probably for the first time in over a year (I was on meds then too!!)… Today I took a brisk undulating walk with my baby on my back… 

I’m gradually building muscle, whilst maintaining a healthy 9 stone… My yoga teacher even commented on how much better I look (and perform)!  

Life is great!! Long may these improvements continue!! My right wrist is my next target… I can’t extend my fingers and my wrist at the same time 😦 so waving is pretty difficult… 
Keeping finges crossed!! Hope you are all feeling good and making your way to recovery!! Nx

2014 in review

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A tough start to the week… But it will get better!

Last Wednesday I went home ‘sick’, I stayed off until Monday, I decided for the first time in my life I wouldn’t rush back the next day. I felt much better than last Wednesday, but it’s very difficult to know how ‘well’ you are when every morning is so difficult, and every day so dependent on the activities that it holds.

Work was ok, a good distraction, but generally when I’m distracted, I forget quite how much I’ve done. It was a busy day Monday, and an even busier Tuesday. And it’s only when I sit down at 3/4pm to do my notes for the day that I realise I can’t get back up again, and by 4.30pm my hand is fixed in the pen holding position! Doh… Maybe I’ve done too much again. But I feel so guilty that I already have a light case load, because as a team we are so stretched at the moment with staff shortages, I already feel like I’m not pulling my weight.

Tomorrow is a day off, I have started to use my holidays to take days off in the week to break the work up…. Hopefully this will work… But right now, as I struggle to type, struggle to move on the settee, struggle up the stairs, struggle to hold my tooth brush and struggle to get comfy in bed, I don’t know if one day is enough. Let’s hope so!


Zeus and Riva this evening with their birthday tea… 3 years old today! Sadly I haven’t made it out on their birthday walk.

Exhausted already…

And I’ve only just pulled up at work… Let’s hope today goes quickly and without any snags!!

Day off sick…

Today is the first day in over 7 years that I have taken the day off sick because of my RA. I don’t like it, but I know it’s the right thing to do.

I’m experiencing such turmoil.
Thoughts of guilt – from leaving the rest of my team to deal with my patients, to the idea that I might take myself to the swimming pool to ease my joints (“people off sick don’t do that, if your too sick to be at work, your too sick to go swimming surely?!”).
Thoughts of disappointment – from not being able to keep going
Thoughts of anger – at myself for pushing myself to this point

But equally, I know it’s the right thing to do, I have to listen to my body more, as I stated in my blog ‘Good Days and Bad Days’ yesterday:

“Essentially, this is me starting to consider my life and health over my sickness from work… A big step for someone who abhors being off work”.

I just didn’t realise that I would have to take that step today!

A good article…

This made sense to me so I have re-blogged.

Have a read.

Lesson Learnt…. well, maybe!

So… Effects of the pacing from my active Wednesday night?? My shoulders are killing me!! So was it the rowing? the mowing? the hanging out the washing?

The answer…? Who knows… because I did them all on one night, I’ll never know… I did not pace myself well!!! Ah well, lesson learnt for now 🙂

Tonight was the ‘mother in laws’ birthday, so we went out for Chinese!! So no huge amount of exercise, back on it tomorrow!